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by Jordan Elyse Wiley on Friday, November 5, 2010 at 8:20am

Welcome back folks | flashy flashy lights…eerrr pages of paper wildly scribbled on – same diff Cause like my favorite man on the mic who’s now in the slamma hamma says ‘this is my theme park what should I scream for’ weezy

Check the marquee | Take a mental pic – ‘click click’ | Now Vogue

okie dokie, well- that felt pretty good, im not gonna lie… Today’s lesson: focus

So one of my favorite things to do with myself…is reflect. Get your mind out of the gutter. I’m not really sure how or why my writing began 13 years ago. 13 wow. This really is turning into a memoir. Focus. Anywho – writing like this anyway….to myself and now whoever is bored enough to actually pain their way through the incoherence of my conversations with my mind... Hey it makes sense to me. - That’s just special. And cool. I imagine it’s something many people we now consider to be ‘great’ once did too. Jea! Point Team Wiley.

In as all serious as I’m capable of right now- it has been a while….2009 was nothing short of a – I’m not really finding the words to define it. It was insanity. Chaos. Albeit remotely managed chaos but wow. I still have a hard time truly comprehending that was MY life.

Whether I’m writing in search of clarity, or on the brink of that newfound insight, or I’m going through something I can’t handle on the surface – it’s always interesting to me where I am at in my head 10 months after I put my thoughts down on paper –and then typed them lol. It’s even more fun and embarrassing to go back 6 or 8 years. No it’s awful…

one detail always remains the same: that I was such a little girl at the time and in true character I thought I had everything figured out; usually dramatic or intense in some ‘my- life- as- a- movie’ kinda way.

I wrote it once. I’m sure I’ll write it again when I’m 30.

Memory is an unreliable narrator.

But who caresssssss papaha. I love my life. Sometimes I wish it would get easier but I’ve come to terms with the fact that it’s never going to and holy gasp batman! I’m actually starting to put together the lessons I’ve collected with age and use them to my advantage. So strange.