baby you don't know.

alrighty then. i was gonna do this in my idea book. thats right i said idea book. dont get any ideas and copy me. its my self proclaimed book of excellence. anyway since i havent really updated the blogspot as of late...or since my computer decided to commit suicide err.... lifelovesyourface takes the cake.

first lets rehash the events of week's past. that is supposed to be like the ghost of christmas past or what not...yes i realize it doesnt sound that great. whatevs its important.

sunday funday holy insomnianess...slash yeahhhhh not telling. final hours of SATURN EARTH DAY EVENT in "keep Austin weird, TEXAS"....so I guess Saturn is being "spun off" interpret that as you will. Pontiac is dunzo. hello thank you!!! im sure there are many more out there awaiting their death sentence. let's hope theyre ford or dodge or hyundai (really??) kia (really??) general motors is pretty much a staple of american history....they will never die.

i really want a saturn...maybe. definitely a gm though...well lol, i'll do another bmw. but probably a 5 series...wait, wait i think i remember my 5 year plan involving a m3.
i dont really know if i can go un-american. ive become too republican. haha. NOBAMA.

yeah.... lets try to avoid politics today. ok on subject.

so did some sightseeing. why are the highways in texas so freaking high?!!?!!? i mean it was nuts....they were like miles into the sky. it was insane. and i realize this might seem so duh to some people but realize i have never seen anything like this in my life. im from the midwest....enough said.

austin airport. made my flight. houston. absolutely exhausted at this point mind you. off the plane: connect to atlanta has been cancelled. oh brother. holy heart attack. ive never wanted to abandon ship so bad. i think it was at this point i came to the conclusion that i never wanted to step foot in an airport ever again. blah blah.
i did, however, finally make it home. the moniters were lying to me. my flight came. zip to atlanta. DRUNK.

hello week of 4 to the 20. awww sukie sukie now. sound it out. happy holidays kids. everyone at slc got laid off. lovely. more of thing 1 trying to control my life. the rest of that week is kind of blank. i know i went to a softball game....i packed a bitchin beer purse and drank alone haha. then i passed out in the car...didnt watch any of game numero dos. sweetwater on friday. place was sicky icky. purple kush. and weeeeeere out.

basically a week of worthlessness and sleeeeeeeep.


P E O P L E W A T C H I N G
the art of.

self explanatory. i also kind of like watching people react to me. im subconsciously getting great at it. notice i said great not good. good is for suckas. i tend to call people on it and stare harder or smurk at them its pretty entertaining.

CVG LAX ATL,,,,
that's all i could remember
I'm gearing up for life inside the airport. dude its like another world. its not top secret but its pretty much exclusive. be jealous. to me it kind of intriguing. you know that tom hanks movie where homeboy isnt allowed to ever set foot outside of the airport. its like a foreign country or outer space or underwater or something. the illusion is definitely there. its going to be interesting to see how it comes to life day in and day out. what brings it to life...grinds its gears...what makes it special. yeah im weird i know.



I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK AS LONG AS IT'S ABOUT ME

ahhh perfection
lately i hate hate hate attention. compliments. etc. why does it bother me so much??? is it because i dont believe it or because i dont want it? im not really fooo shooo. its just gotten increasingly annoying. then again my strive for perfection as of this year has grown somewhat relentless in its pursuits. ahhh to live inside my head. feel sorry for the girl

im almost unable to distinguish whether or not what i feel is real or not. do i create it? is it boredom? i think so. i think my mom voted crazy.
sometimes i think i am going kind of crazy.
lately: a lot.
im kind of all over the place (no way you wouldnt guess that from this blog heh)
but then i talked to my best friend and she told me she is the same way, all girls seem to come to that crossroad. for now were gonna blame it on the a-a-a-a-adderall.



g-ay this is one long random post.

WHAT I LEARNED THIS WEEK ITS LIKE MAY 5TH PSHHHHHHHH:

never give anything away for free. marketing 101 folks. it's called perceived value. write that down.

i met myself in the future.....

the mall of america has a roller coaster in it. omg and there is a water park of america also. jeff chupa and i discussed eloping on a water slide. we have to be at least 27. then were getting hitched. DO IT.
he is trouble bc he is locked into this deal...no guy is going to marry me in the next 2 years lol. i dont know if that is funny...hmmm. we can divulge more into this topic later.



as for MAY.
i hope for it to bring: LIFE.


L O V E S

xoxo